Pining for Cedar

"Come back to center, back to the Heart," you say. 

And I give. 

The end of every man is in the peace of death,

to awaken, perhaps, to New Life. 

And so I know that there is good in us, 

not of our own making, yet it is there,

Still. 

So meditate, be motionless and return to truth.

No sooner have I let my lead foot off the brake 

that keeps at bay my emotional flood

of combusting fluids that

Spark into flame

then pass away..

let it all through, let it run clear,

Always, your face is at the front of this force

I resist, I give, I remember:

I Love you. 

 So briefly known, a glimpse of my dreams, the Light in the seams

I release you to freedom, to follow your way

Selfless Love

known always in retrospect

If I could reverse the way my heart beats

maybe I could keep you

but we are stuck in the forward motion of

Time's tidal wave.. So I surf on;

learn to keep this boat afloat

The gash you left in me 

when you made me

complete

is Where I finally felt the heartbeat

of my mother, my other, 

my source, my self. 

And everything. 

But everything's vacant without your sweet

Heartbeat.